I’ve been sick. For over two weeks now I’ve been stuck at home. It was nothing horrible like the flu but a sinus infection that decided to take my asthma out to play. That means no visits to Mom for that time also.
This morning I was finally able to visit. Mom was sleeping soundly in her wheelchair when I arrived, holding her baby doll on her lap. I gently checked her over, inspecting her hands, her ankles, and rubbing her back so that she would slowly wake up.
When she awoke, she looked at me with that little look that says hello, whoever you are. She asked me about the baby seemingly thinking I was there to see it. When I let her know I was there to see her, she shrugged and started telling me about the baby.
She started removing the baby doll’s pajamas so I got out some clothes and helped her put the clothes on the baby. As we worked, I talked a bit and called her Mom. Her response? “Well, I don’t know about that.” :)
Our visit continued with Mom dozing off and on. At one point she awoke and I took the opportunity to show her the pictures that I always go through of Grandpa and Grandma and so on. She knew them right away as she quite often does but today she surprised me! When I brought up the picture of her aunts, she immediately pointed to each one and said, “That’s Aunt Sattie and Aunt Emma and that's me.” Wow! That hasn’t happened in a very long time!
I continued through the pictures and she pointed here and there at herself as a small child. I couldn’t tell if she recognized herself as a teenager or in her wedding picture. When I got to the last, the one of our family when I was little, I pointed and said the name of each family member and she just smiled and nodded. I couldn’t tell if it was registering or not.
A short while later it was time to take her into lunch. Once there, she was trying to look back at me to see who had wheeled her in so I got down where she could see me and she smiled and said, “Oh, you’re mine.”
The mom I knew for so much of my life has been gone a long time and I miss her terribly but it’s those brief moments and little surprises that grab my heart.